Saturday, May 9, 2009

on being a mommy.

the day after mother's day.
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a mother's day in which i woke up at 2:45 in the morning with a sobbing cora ...
pulled her into my bed ... to snuggle and fall back to sleep ...

woke up ... several hours later ... four ... (to be exact) ...
with stella holding a painted picture frame ... full of muted primary colors ... in front of my face ... perfectly framing her bed head ... see what i made for you mommy? happy mother's day!
reached out and pulled her in to join us ... cuddled for approximately 3 minutes before everyone (else) wanted out of bed.

i wanted a bit more ... cuddles. and shut eye.

cora wanted to give me her frame.
stella wanted to give me my other present. a photography book. awesome.

i made coffee ... and breakfast ...

i threw everyone in the bathtub and was happy that i had decided to shower the night before. why ... yes ... ponytail ... i would love to have you join us today ...

we rushed to the nursery to purchase a last minute mother's day gift ... which was planned to be purchased as a last minute gift ...
... a tomato plant for my mommy for mother's day ...

the cashier? ... gardener? ... random guy with overalls? (isn't anyday that you randomly run into a guy in overalls considered a good day?) ... remarked ... how come you have the kids today? isn't it mother's day? shouldn't you get the day off?

(insert typical pilot wife response) ... yeah, well ... daddy is an airline pilot ... there is no such thing as a holiday in the airlines ... but he comes home tonight ... so maybe i'll get a break later ... (yeah right - he was getting in at 9 ... or maybe 10).

realized during the drive ... that honestly ... these two girly-girls (and the one that got away) ... allow me to proudly hold that mommy title ... i wouldn't want to spend my day with anyone else ...

but did.

had brunch at grandma's assisted living facility ... blech. there was a salad bar ... basically lettuce and fruit ... with a buffet of bacon, french toast, beef tenderloin, teriyaki-ish salmon ... and several other meaty choices. apparently the elderly were in desperate need of protein.

delivered stella and my mom to a previously scheduled play ... the paperbag princess ... wished that i would have dressed stella in a paperbag.

ran home ... cleaned ... sorted through cora's clothing ... did laundry ... emptied the refrigerator of all things oldy and moldy ...

picked stella and grandma up ... received a bouquet of white tulips.

came home ... played ... outside ... grilled hot dogs ... inside. ate quietly with my girls. (ha.) ate rambunctiously with the girls.

the girls fell asleep on the couch in various positions, while reading books ... but both anchored to me through at the very least a hand or a foot ... with various shades of pink and purple blankies between us ... and a nuk. of course.

a mama and her girls.

i slipped the girls in their respective beds ...

and then husband came home ... at 10-ish ... interrupting a documentary about this crazy carnivorous little fish in the amazon river that lodged itself into ... um ... some guy's junk. and he wished me a happy mother's day. (my husband and not the guy in the documentary).
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in other words ... a day like any other day. with a few extra cards and gifts and flowers (besides dandelions) thrown in there ...

and i realized that ... i don't need fancy days at the spa (although they are wonderful too) ... i don't need to be on my own today (although sometimes me time is nice) ... i don't need cards with sparkles and songs (i really don't need those) ...

i just need to feel appreciated as a mommy.
i just want people to see that i'm trying to do my best ...

even though sometimes i yell more than i whisper ... and i say no more often than yes ... and i get frustrated when the milk spills ... instead of giggle and decide what the milk looks like as it pools on the table. (which is totally washable ... i know.)

i just want to feel a connection to mothers around the world.
i just need to feel wanted and needed.

even though i guess i'm fully aware of the little's need for me ... in the midst of screaming "MOMMY!"s from the basement playroom and in needing a kiss to a scraped knee after falling from a trike ...

so i guess i don't really NEED anything ... now do i? but i do appreciate all of it.
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here's to hoping that your day after mother's day leaves you feeling just as cherished as your mother's day did.

wishing you a happy day after mother's day ...

8 comments:

Connie Weiss said...

Happy Mother's Day dear friend!

My Mother's day was spent in the car, returning from a fabulous weekend. I didn't get a card and I ate at McDonalds but I had everything I needed....and more!

It is quite possibly the best Mother's Day I've ever had.

Casey said...

Aww, happy Mother's Day. You can totally request a do over for the next day that your husband is home, right?

It's nice to be wanted and needed but I get wanting a little break now and then.

Sprite's Keeper said...

Sounds like a fun day to me! Although the part about the carnivorous fish latching onto the guy's junk? Biggest laugh of my day!)

Raising Z said...

That was beautiful. My mother's day was also not picture perfect but wonderful just the same :) Happy Mother's Day!

amanda said...

a) happy mama's day

b) i puffy heart you - i never knew about the one that got away...i had one get away too and so i had to click back and read your post - you described it all so perfectly. and bc i have been there i know sorry doesn't cut it or help - but i am.

c) now i just want to give you big hugs...

blissfully caffeinated said...

There is no need for men to wear overalls. Ever.

Glad you had a nice day (old person buffet notwithstanding - you are a bigger person than I am). Sounds like a perfect Mother's Day.

anymommy said...

I love this post and I agree 100% But, I still hope you got a little time off this week!

KJ said...

Documentary or Grey's...that was totally on an episode of Grey's in season 3 or 4...:D