there's this to do and that to do.
and i sit here. gazing at this photo. because it's my sunshine. in action. totally and completely being her.
and she's not here.
gah. it's taking some getting used to ... this whole kid in preschool thing. with another in elementary school. and another that occasionally blesses his mama with a nap for a few hours in the afternoon.
and i feel so lucky to get to experience this while working part time.
i feel like a mom.
isn't that weird? i haven't totally wrapped my brain around that ... it's me. i'm well aware of that ... i know that my heart rests outside of my body in these three beautiful children and i love them so amazingly. but ... i'm a mom. i have to get people dressed and out the door. i have to look out for them and take care of them and i can't just abandon ship and run free.
nor would i want to.
though i still dream of a weekend eating pizza alone while watching a chick flick in a bed.
blah blah blah.
allowing me (last fall ... i can't believe this was last fall already) to practice sunflare. and she tipped and the sun shone through her arm while she made the silliest face.
check out i heart faces for more a touch of sun entries this week.