i sit here with fingers itching to write.
i'm just not sure.
but i feel an itch.
that restlessness in myself grows at times. it's there pulsing beneath my surface. wanting to say something. and yet i'm really struggling right about now with the what to say and the is it really important and does anyone really care anyways. and the ... worry.
and then, sometimes it quiets and rests gently while i go about doing what i do. everyday. not knocking or barging it's way out of myself.
it reminds me of the seasons, i'd guess. as someone that is hyperaware of living in a space that has such a distinction between seasons. i think i'm thankful for that. i was when i lived somewhere that didn't. though THIS season is really taking a toll on me.
i'm rather certain that there is beautiful blades of green grass somewhere beneath the gigantuous piles of white that cover my world.
and i'm feeling this need to write. and to explore. and to get us the hell out of the house.
and so i am (trying). and we are (trying). and we did.
today was a day of epic warmth. that will likely be bundled between days of freezing cold.
the type of weather that brings neighbors out of their houses and causes people to stop and talk in the street amidst the walking of the dogs, rather than bundled to their noses and quickly marching to their (warm) destinations. and in desperate search for some vitamin d ... we ventured out to a minneapolis landmark. and i purposely left the coats in the car and i brought my camera and my mom.
and then cora started in with the three year old whining ...
and so my mom (thank you mooma) returned to the car to grab her coat.
which ceased some of the whineyness.
i said some.
and inside the greenhouses ... we saw green.
lovely lovely lovely green.
i've missed green.
(sorry men that i do not know for this is not a very flattering picture of either of you.)
and you can also see my mom that is apparently ignoring the sign that stella read that said "DO NOT CLIMB ON THE SPOON WITH A CHERRY THINGY"
or she was just really glad that cora had moved her whiny away from her for a minute.
have i mentioned the whiny?