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it's week 24. and as y'all probably know. i haven't kept up. i haven't kept up with the weight loss. i haven't kept up with the posting about it. i haven't kept up with my goals to work out.
and i've come to a realization.
i NEED to do this. now.
i need to do it for myself. my kids. my husband.
i need to do it to stay healthy.
i'm so incredibly sick of losing and gaining the same amount of weight over and over again. obviously i'm doing something wrong.
so ... i've re-evaluated and this is what i've come up with. i need to use what i have. i need to set realistic goals for myself. i need to be proud of what i do, not just how much i lose.
i started this back here saying ... ah hell ... i'm just gonna copy and paste it in ... i need the reminder. (this is all about me folks ... thanks for reading ... but it's really all about me.)
so my "friend", jen "at" steenkybee, "alerted" me to another "blogger" that is "hosting" a weight-loss "club".
sorry about the unnecessary quotations...i just read a funny blog about unnecessary quotations...and as soon as i started with the "friend" thing...i couldn't help myself. it's my whacked sense of humor, i guess. you are totally allowed to ignore that first paragraph. but you must pay attention to the rest...there might be a quiz.
i have been in a really difficult place with myself lately. i love myself. i really do.
this body was able to create and birth two gorgeously beautiful blue-eyed blondies. with no meds. no meds. i'm very proud of myself for that.
this body got me a terrific husband. (or maybe that was just my personality and brains. who knows?) but still, a husband that loves me irregardless of what i look like.
this body is me.
but i don't like what it looks like anymore.
i'm loved. but i want to love what i look like. it's a completely selfish desire. but one that i want to accomplish.
so i'm jumping into the club. i've heard rumors that they will kick my ass into gear. is that what she said in the email? sounds harsh. but maybe i don't need anyone quietly motivating me. maybe this is just what i need. here's my first assignment.
side note...why can't everyone not use capital letters? i hate having to erase and correct all those damn capital letters when i cut and paste. seriously...time, folks! i don't have a lot of it!
write and publish a blog post on your site detailing the following information:
what motivates you and why do you want to do this challenge?
motivations...the desire to never have to be tested for diabetes. the desire to love what i look like in the mirror. the desire to run around the yard with my kids. the desire to have my husband think he just acquired a trophy wife. why?...cause i want to love myself more than i already do. because my mom and her 2 sisters all have diabetes...and i don't want to prick my fingers.
what is your long term goal?
i want to wear a size 10. or 8. that's 3 (or 4) sizes folks. i realistically think i can get there with perseverance. and less eating out.
what is your long term weight loss goal?
i have no idea what the above will look like in poundage. i'm guessing 25-30 pounds?
what tools are available to you?
i have a membership at curves that is ending this month. which is good. i haven't been getting there. my time with my girls was too precious, already. husband will be bringing home my elliptical machine from another location (borrowed to someone else, when i got the curves membership). i have a dog. i have the girly-girls. i have trails in the valley. i also have winter rearing it's vicious head. so...i have an elliptical machine.
how often can you exercise?
i want to note...in her description here...she called us fatties. just for that...i'm gonna exercise 5 mornings per week.
what do you plan on doing?
my plan is to set my alarm for 5:45. i will not hit snooze. i will start a pot of coffee and go downstairs on my elliptical machine for at least 20 minutes. i will do 10 sit-ups (for starters). and then i will shower and get ready, before the girls get up. then, i'm not wasting the time that i have with them.
my eating plan, is to call my friend (a dietician) and ask for some suggestions. she's amazing and beautiful and highly recommends chocolate. but in moderation. i want her to help me.
what has worked for you in the past?
i've never had to work for it. in the past...it was easy. i rode up to 5 horses a day. i ate whatever i wanted. i occasionally pulled out my yoga for abs dvd.
what hasn't worked in the most recent past...is workouts that bore me, eating whatever i want, not caring, being too busy to eat healthy and not having people there to kick my ass.
i think i need the ass-kicking, everyone. so...i'm gonna post in my side-bar my weight loss. every week. (which means i need to buy a scale.) i might just need y'all to keep the motivation going.
just keep kicking my ass until i reach my goal.
oh yeah. no quiz. just wanted to keep you on your toes.
... so that was then. this is what i want now.
i want to lose 2-3 pounds this week. (and next week i'll probably say the same thing. you've been forewarned ... although that will hopefully be in addition to the 2-3 lost this week.) it's going to be a week by week thing for me. i want to exercise 3-4 times this week. i will calculate all calories consumed monday to friday when i have a computer at my fingertips. i will watch myself on saturday and sunday. i will beg my friend for some advice in the nutrition department. i will beg another friend to give me fitness advice. i will include the girly-girls. because i don't ever want them to have to go through this. i want them to know a healthy lifestyle. and i want them to know that they are beautiful. just because they are ... not because of inches and sizes and numbers.
so ... now i need to find a happy medium between teaching the girls to be healthy and teaching them to love themselves. argh. no one ever said this was easy, right?
i also need you to give me your advice ... please?
i need to know how to fit the exercise in ... (almost) everyday.
and i need to know what you all eat to fill yourself up so that you aren't starving by dinner ... when you are armed with the knowledge that you only have about 500 calories left for the afternoon/evening.
spill it ... folks!
and honey ... remember that time that you said you didn't really want a trophy wife after reading that old post? and how you just really wanted me to be healthy and happy? thank you for that.